From my decision came indecision and from my indecision came a decision. My life has been quite unsure lately. But finally, the Lord has given me peace about where I am to go. For a few weeks now, I have been sitting on the decision that I am going to stay in Bellingham for the time being. After a job I had been praying about in Seattle fell through at the beginning of the month, my second thoughts about moving to Seattle became very real.
So I will be in Bellingham, continuing to work with my church’s youth group, and searching for a job in my field. It may not be a ministry job, but maybe it’s time I work outside of a ministry for a while. Although working at my current part time job after I graduate is not the triumphant picture I had in my head, I believe it will all work out for my good. And even better, it is yet another opportunity to trust God’s hand in my life. Afterall He has a much better perspective than me! So with that in mind, I am contiuning on. Although, I am not one to not think about other options.
My Junior year of college I looked into The Master’s College for grad. school. I became interested in their Biblical Counseling Program, but put it in the back of my mind because I still had a while until college graduation. Recently I revisited the idea of graduate school, and found it agreeable. So I’ll be taking a year off, and perhaps applying to Master’s this fall. Although school is not my favorite thing, I love the idea of studying the Bible for a degree and learning how to use the Bible to help people with their struggles. Which is seemingly perfect for the type of ministry I want to work in. Although going to school another two years will be financially straining, the Lord will do great work in that area of my life (as He has done in the past). So that is my subject to change idea of what’s to come. All I know is that the Lord is in the Heavens and does what He pleases. So whatever I do is dependent on what the Lord wants in my life and how He feel I can best serve Him.
How exciting is that! I’m glad plans don’t always work out because I know for a fact that if I had not struggled through decisions and circumstances, I would not have the strong relationship I have with the Lord now. James 1:2-8
Categories: What lies ahead?
Second thoughts are flooding my head right now. This week has been filled with second guesses on my decision to move to the Seattle area to find a job. I thought I had made a solid decision, but now I’m just not sure where to go next. With graduation coming up, I am going to have to act fast.
It takes so much for me to remain sane during my job search. I have not had any offers of even interviews and it becomes discouraging. The main job I had my eye on has not called and interviews start on Monday. I keep reminding myself of the Lord’s sovereignty and His faithfulness to provide for His children. I’m so glad that I am not stressing about it and He has given me much needed peace. The Lord is so faithful!
He will provide a job opening, and I know He is using this time to strengthen my faith and refine me. But my sinful nature is aching to go crazy. To start pacing around in an anxious frenzy and just go crazy. Thankfully for me and my roommate, the Lord does give peace because five years ago, I’m sure I would be doing just that.
So if anyone is out there, actually reading this, please pray for me. I just need a job so I can pay all of my bills, but even more so, I would like a job in my field (Human Services). Bills are important, but I want to help people and use the gifts the Lord has given me in my job so that I may serve Him.
Thanks…until next time…
Categories: What lies ahead?
